It’s been 7 months since my previous IVF.
After the failure of 1st IVF, i decided to take a break from all fertility treatments and fully enjoyed my trips to Maine and Japan. I don’t want to rush and get it ruined entirely likes the last time. Along the six months, i was no longer in super-healthy diet, had fast-food and cold-drinks whenever i wanted, because i believe that wasn’t the main reason behind my infertility. Instead, i started taking vitex again, it is one of the few remedies that could shorten my follicular phase. And i slowly learned to calm myself through Buddhism. However, i still didn’t get pregnant.
So, after my Japan trip, i think it was time to do it again.
This time, they decided to stick to antagonist protocol with different stimulation. My period came on 7th September and i started taking Progynova 2mg twice a day for 5 days and stimulation started on 13th September. I am glad that i was given free-meds day on my birthday and Thanks God, i had a wonderful celebration dinner with families and friends.
7-11/9 Progynova 2mg twice a day
13-18/9 Menopur 150 i.u. once a day
19-22/9 Menopur 150 i.u. and Cetrotide 0.25mg once a day
23/9 Cetrotide 0.25mg and triggered with Decapeptyl 0.2mg (9:00pm sharp)
In the early morning of 25th September, i registered myself at the daycare centre. During the last TVS, i already be informed that this going to be freeze-all cycle, as my estrogen level was too high, risky for OHSS. They aimed for below 15,000 i.u., mine was spiked up to 40,000 on retrieval day i.u.
The process took for about one hour and this time, i had no memory along the process. A total of 13 eggs were retrieved and due to the high estrogen level, they decided to do half by ICSI and half by IVF. J’s swimmers were improving to a great number, 94million/ml and 63% motility! Thanks to Profortil!
Upon woke up, i was still feeling ok but it got worsen after few hours. i felt super bloated and was in intensive pain, to the point that i can’t straighten my body to walk. I thought, my God i really got OHSS!!! Luckily that night i stayed over at my mom’s house, it was so good to be with mommy during such a hard time.
The next day the pain went away, still a little bloated but i was thankful i can finally walk comfortably. I dare not to take anything besides diluted porridge and plain fried eggs. My body was back to normal after 3 days, the day i went to hospital for OHSS investigation and briefing on the embryos development.
DAY 3 POST RETRIEVAL
J picked me up early in the morning to go to hospital. Dr monitored my ovaries and she was surprised the two ladies recovered fast without the symptoms of OHSS, the size shrink almost to normal size. She said according to the estrogen level, they expected high risk of OHSS. I am thankful to my mom for giving me such a fast-recover body.
Here comes my darkest moment of the day. Out of 13 eggs, 2 were abnormal, 5 fertilized by ICSI but none of the another 6 were fertilized by IVF, on day 1 they rescued 3 from it. So i had a total of 8 fertilized embryos. Unfortunately, most of them are severely fragmented (>30%) and consisted of uneven cells, the overall shape were in oval instead of perfect-round. I left with total 3 embryos to freeze, 1 gred 1 and 2 gred 2. Then, they instructed me to call on the CD1 and i will probably go through endometrium scratching before frozen embryos transfer in November.
I was devastated, i thought at least half are freezable, i was heartbroken, same as J. Then, i posted on IVF support FB page, really wanted to know why it happened, despite i had taken all those supplements as instructed. I was only told PCO often deals with poor egg quality and i am afraid there is no solution to it. But i feel better now, likes the ladies said:
At the end of the day, we need only ONE to become a mother
Yeah, i should have understood. I need only one and i hope all the three babies heard my shoutout: ” I hope all three of you can be my sticky beans and i will be very glad to have all three of you, i love you already although i never met you in person.”